scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Hugs, I just wish life would get better for me. It really feels hopeless.

Can you find an outlet?
That's why I make music.

It’s feels pointless without someone to share it with.
Should be more to life then working and playing video games alone, they lose their enjoyment, everything does. Not super excited for any games coming out or next generation, I don’t enjoy holidays anymore. Things I enjoyed aren’t enjoyable anymore.

I know the feeling. I go to work, I maybe work on a car and post on here and go to bed. Repeat. I lost interest in games years ago, even rFactor.

Part of why I suggest a creative outlet is that there's communities dedicated to them where you can post and already have a built-in base who might pay attention. You can post it here too. If it works for me, it might possibly work for you as well. Whether it's writing or visual art or music or photography or whatever.

Are you in Eugene? I know a guy someone from out there who would fit in well on here, if photography is of interest to you, he might be worth reaching out to.

https://www.deviantart.com/humloch

for us outliers, it generally hurts like hell to be forced to do everything alone, until one learns to love the reflection in the mirror at which point everybody else becomes irrelevant. so to loneliness, too, there comes an end. in my early years i found some comfort from this bit of prose -

To the Loneliest One

There is in certain living souls
A quality of loneliness unspeakable
So great it must be shared
As company is shared by lesser beings.
Such a loneliness is mine; so know by this
That in immensity
There is one lonelier than you.

Perhaps in the end, all that matters is this: that even to loneliness, there is an end."

[Theodore Sturgeon- 1918-1985]

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I see this ! Music survived me into my late teenage years,that simon & garfunkel tune was practically a mantra for me ...... at that time , had no knowledge that there was remotely a difference in personality types .
You would have thought me, crazy then too . Just because.
Huggz widower.

Hi Jakki
Comforting to find someone actually heard me. Thankyou. 'Music survived me' is an odd phrase, do you mean music helped you survive? I think there may be something in this, and maybe I need to be working on a list of upbeat music to improve my outlook. Suggestions welcome, anyone?
W

when i want to express deep emotions, i listen to barber's adagio for strings. there's a place for us from west side story has a ton of hope.

there is something hypnotically edifying about being in a cathedral listening to massed choirs or pipe organ [especially antiphonal pipes].

I'm a fair -1 today. Not quite in the depths but pissed off. I am basically my sister's carer and I have no time for myself and I'm always cookin coookin coooooooooooookin or cleaning or something else that takes my precious time. I slept bad last night, this cannot be my life....no one gives a s**t how I feel

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Often my diction is a oddity . Music. Helped me get through some early ,
Absolutely insane periods of my upbringing . I understand dysfunctional, but this was truley abberant behaviour on the part of my birth family.
Family did not fall apart , it dissolved ..to this , i may try to forgive , but prolly never get real understands .
So glad you found something to help get you through.

Often my diction is a oddity . Music. Helped me get through some early ,
Absolutely insane periods of my upbringing . I understand dysfunctional, but this was truley abberant behaviour on the part of my birth family.
Family did not fall apart , it dissolved ..to this , i may try to forgive , but prolly never get real understands .
So glad you found something to help get you through. [/quote]

Hi Jakki

Congrats on surviving. I don't think I can blame my family for anything really. I have pretty much stopped speaking to them, one by one, over the years for various reasons, but objectively, probably it was usually my fault more than theirs.

On the music topic, I'm finding it slow going to come up with upbeat tracks that I already like, I only have 'Reasons to be Cheerful' and 'Good Vibrations' so far. what can you add?
W