I'm finding myself beating my own self in my own head because of the self-imposed pressures of doing things such as settling down and having kids even though I don't have a partner and getting frustrated and thinking that its my fault because I don't try hard enough because I'm not one of those people who goes out regularly every weekend evening looking for a potential partner. I feel its even discouraged me from wanting to go and give people a hand in doing the dinner or something after they've come back from work. I just stayed upstairs and didn't come down to explain my reasons for not coming down but I don't feel comfortable in helping someone if they are fed up and running around huffing and puffing and swearing trying to get things done. I then ended up feeling bad like as if I am a lazy sod.
22 Nov 2022, 3:22 pm
